Happy 2nd Birthday!

I have been really bad about posting blogs this past year and I feel bad but thats what happens when Kiptyn is around!  Here are some pictures from Kiptyn and Kylie's birthday party this past year, where they turned 2!!  We had an Elmo and Abby themed party for them, Kiptyn loves Elmo, so it was only fitting that Kylie would love Abby!  The cakes/cupcakes are above that took all night long!  Kylie also got some new white roses at her headstone and some balloons from the party.

We didn't get any pictures at the party, or of K with the cake, so I had to reenact it on Tuesday when we went to music to celebrate Kylie day at music!  We sang all animal songs that day and I made mini cupcakes again in her celebration!  It was a good day.

Happy very late 2nd birthday Kiptyn and Kylie!  Love you both very much.

xxoo

A butterfly for Kylie

Kiptyn and I went to a remembrance ceremony at Fairfax Hospital that they have once a year and a sweet family donated butterflies for all of the families to let go to our babies.  The butterfly went right to Kiptyn and his face was just priceless, as you can see.

Just one more way we remember our sweet Kylie.  She is never forgotten in our minds or hearts.

xxoo

For Ky Ky

You were a gift sent straight from Heaven.
Given to us from God above.
We didn't know how much you would teach us
About the meaning of true love...
For true love sometimes means letting go
Of someone precious and dear.
That is what we were forced to do...
Although we wanted to keep you here!!!
However, this is quite a selfish wish.
One we know we should ignore...
But, sweet Kylie, we truly do believe
That God must have needed you more...
Perhaps to be an Angel now,
Full of wisdom and love...
Watching over those of us who love you
From the shining stars above.
We miss you more than you can know.
You will never be replaced...
In our hearts and memories forever,
Will be your sweet and innocent sleeping face.

Happy Birthday Kiptyn and Kylie!

Kiptyn,

I am a day late, but I was preparing for your party. I wanted to wish you two a happy first birthday! We are so proud of how far you have come. You are such a big boy now! You can crawl so fast, we can barely catch you! You are such a fearless little boy, you are going to make us work hard to keep up with you and your adventures. I am ready for it! You have come so far from a little tiny 6 pound 9 ounce baby! You are the light of our days, your smile just makes everything so much better. Thank you for being such a joy to our lives. We look forward to the little boy that you will turn into and can't wait to hear what you sound like when you start talking our ears off! Mommy and daddy love you so much and we are so glad to have you as our lil boy. Happy 1st Birthday! xxoo

Love,

Mommy and Daddy

Kylie,

Happy first birthday our sweet angel. We hope that you had a great party up there with all your family and friends. We also hope you joined us for your party here. We really hope you got to experience a cake like your brother did! We miss you so much, but there isn't a day that goes by that we don't think about you. We wish you were still here with us, but we know that you are just in another way. We wish that you could play with your brother and sister, we would love to see how you all interacted. We wonder if you would be walking, as fearless as your brother, or even as big as he is! We think that your smile and laugh would be just as cute and entertaining truly as Kiptyn's. I hope that you are watching over us and making sure we are all safe. You are our lil angel and our baby girl. You always will be. We miss you and hope that you are well taken care of up there looking down on us. Happy 1st birthday baby girl. xxoo

Love,

Mommy and Daddy

Happy 4th of July baby girl.

We did a walk to remember our sweet Kylie on the 4th of July. Here are two pictures from it. She was with us in spirit.

Miss you Ky Ky. xxoo
Mommy, daddy, Haley and Kiptyn

You should've had a dress on that looks like Haleys.

Easter

Of course we went to see Kylie on her first Easter. We decorated her plot with fun Easter things. Haley enjoyed sticking the eggs on sticks in the ground for her. She says hi to her every time we drive by. Here are some pictures from that day.


Haley checking out all the eggs!




The first Easter bib that Kiptyn wore earlier in the day. She should've been here wearing it in person. :(

17 weeks later....

We are surviving. Just last Thursday we met with Dr. Weinstein about the autopsy results. They came back 16 weeks later. Thursday is just one crazy day for us apparently. They were born on a Thursday, she left us on a Thursday (11 weeks later), and we got the autopsy results on a Thursday. Anyways, they basically said that she had pneumonia, bronchialitis (otherwise known as RSV which is what Kiptyn got diagnosed with 2 days later) and had aspirated. They left her cause of death as undetermined.
In some ways we are relieved and in others we are more guilty. We were worried about Kiptyn the whole time, especially as 2 days before we took him to the doctor. I guess we should've had her in the doctor too the same day. But we can't go back and change time, even though we wish we could.

She will always be in our hearts and not a day goes by that we dont think about her.